i've been joining the living, drinking and smoking. screwing and shamelessly dancing. pushing the barriers of the mind. drifting from insanity. some kind of solitude. provides the seldom paranoia, of a broken city. i think im still feeding off your skin, giving me the need to take you as my own. and share with no other soul, keep you as my only lover. love has a way to strike my soul, i know im not the person i say to be. love is all around, all is the love im looking for. only in you, i find a brighter sky. only in you, i see myself mighty. idont know much about my destiny. i think its better this way, cus fuck dude, its not worth knowing. you keep me on my toes.

"the time has come again.
to live it up,
and build it up.
some wouldn't really dare to stare.
some wouldn't even pretend."

mr jones will be the spokesmen.
he wakes you up,
and builds you up.
makes you understand.
with the aid of his helping hand.

so where's my stash, and where's my cash.
bring that bitch an ounce of that.
show me that youre good with words.
deny to me that youre a nerd.
give me something good to make you full.
shake your body for this bouncing street.

mr jones likes the stones.
talks to them, but they rarely reply.
i see he finally broke his bones.
"let me see into ye eyes!"

this shit's fucked up
you should better buckle up.
we be making a grand escape
from this freak show
and leave for a distant city.
i think ill miss the snow...

so where's my stash, and where's my cash.
bring that bitch an ounce of that.
show me that youre good with words.
deny to me that ima a nerd.
give you something good to make you full.
shake your body for this bouncing street.

maybe now, youll see
how i became to be.
living fast is how it did.
fuck this shit, im out to hid.

so gimme my stash, and take you cash.
bring that bitch an ounce of that.
show me that youre good with words.
deny to me that we are the freaks.
give us something good to make you full.
shake your body for this bouncing BEAT!


that bitch aint got nothing on me, now. Ha-Ha!

Everything has changed so much lately. From being at war, to coming back home. From going to school, to going to work. Everything has changed. Now, I have an opportunity; become a real state agent. See what I mean? It's quite a job. I can totally do it, but I know I will need some training and give it a real shot. It's also the best possible thing to do in my current cituation. I will look into the Sociology, and Anthropology, as well, to see if something attracts my attention. If not, Psychology is definately my call. I need to focus now, c'mon. Tommorrow, I leave to Mexicali. Lots of heat, and nothing I can do about it. I'll have my mind set when I'm back from my journey across "La Rumorosa." 

Stayfresh/Onelove

ah! the wisdom of the summer has been bestowed upon me! i am who i have become, i am what i have done, i am what i think and i am who i am.
so much spare time can kill you. a phoenix, before being as beautiful as it might, comes from the ashes. ashes are all thats left from the spring. the phoenix of my summer is now soaring the highest heights! living the now, planning the later, remembering the then. never loosing focus of the prey. and though it might glide down on occasions, it is only to gain speed, to gain agility, to gain power. and if it goes up, its only to stay up. it knows it'll never reach above the infinity. this it knows very well. limitations have no place in this summer phoenix expectations. it expect everything in nothing, because only in the nothing, anything is everything. and everything is at least something.

life is waiting for your firebird. i am waiting for my own to grow as mighty as the titans. grow and beat the titans!

Stayfresh/Onelove

alpha waves
and beta waves
rather go for the alpha.

search only what your brain seeks. let it show you how brilliant it is. c'mon dont be shy. you give yourself in. let the ideas flow in and out. dare to dream, dare to think. dont let the beta waves ever take control. dont let someone else think for you. THINK MAN! THINK!

summer. they always change everything. so much free time. so many friends. so many memories.

i am because i exist. my existence is my only possession. ive been out of my mind for the past month. pushing my existence. living faster. putting myself on observation. what will the outcomes be for this summer experience?
"the road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom..."

i am my own guinea pig. i learn from experience and observation.
oh im loving my existence.

Stayfresh/Onelove

insomnia made one of its unwelcome visits to my bed. should be resting, tomorrow its going to be quite a day. really looking forward for this upcoming weekend. full moon on friday night. i love moon-gazing. i love ensenada. i'm tired. i'm feeling so heavy. i like how things work. i like the word work. i like to be active. i need move on with my meditations. retrograde motions are nonsense. static motions are nonsense. give me love, give me pain. give me life. give me desires. give me anger. give me fear. love has one big enemy. Fear. fearful thoughts. aggressive actions are required to become. life is a constant improvisation, but we must guide it somewhere. existentialism is nonsense. we have a life. we have a mind. we cant control it all. but we can control our desires. we can control our actions. act accordingly to the desires, and you will jump into this next stage of existence. awareness is all it takes. empathy its all it takes.
retribution is all it takes. love is all it takes.

question: freedom.
earned? or born into?
we are born free, but only on social terms. free to stay oblivious (ignorant), or free to strive for self-actualization (thinkers). Maslow said not all humans attain this self actualized state. it is the peak of human achievement. the only reason why not all human gain it is because we get lost in the mist of earthly desires (routine). we wonder the planet in aimlessly. so back to the introductory question. we are not born free. our minds are tied to the city of men. we must awake from our long slumber. in my opinion, all human should be self actualized, the overmen. the greatest harm we inflict to ourselves is to deny ourselves. WE MUST NOT DENY OUR NEEDS, NOR OUR WANTS. but we must always, ALWAYS stay unbiased.
freedom comes from within. no one can give you freedom. you cannot be born free. "emancipate yourselves from mental slavery; none but ourselves can free our minds."

its is the nature of things. to be in constant change. living thing are part of nature. and as part of nature, living things change. we must evolve. we must overcome. we will overcome. humans-beings must become deep thinkers. adapt to the needs of the new times. become stronger not weaker. and the time for stronger minds has come. the perfect example are diplomats. they represent a country, and their purpose is to debate with other nations. in medieval times, this was a war. a raid. an invasion to another feudal state. things have change. and will continue to change. the free thinkers are the new breed of human beings. we all are capable of becoming one. but not all of us will.
yes im a elitist. but im inclusive. all humans present right now on the face of the earth are capable of this free thinking. but only few can and only fewer desire it.

AWAKE ALL YOU DORMANT THINKERS.

comportamiento humano. dopamina. deberiamos de aprender en vez de negar. decirnos si a decirnos no. aceptar todo lo que somos, fuiste y probablemente seras. la vida es una improvisacion constante. pero eso no es lo importante. lo importante es saber controlar tu situacion y actuar hacia el mejor beneficio. no precipitarse. planearlo todo. tener un mapa en la cabeza de que quieres y como lo quieres. la felicidad llegara por añadidura. busca tus fuertes. para escudarte en ellos. evita tus debilidad porque si las expones, es mas facil ser vencido. como dr seuss dijo. "life's a great balancing act." tienes que estar en balance, para poder dejar tu alrededor en equilibrio.

respira.

well.. i have a red birthmark on my forehead. its looks red, and roundish. and its been there from day one. he's a real trooper.

yep, my weekend was a good one. hang out with my friends. went to the beach. drank some beers. played soccer. and just had a good time. but now it is only a memory, and this makes me come out with a conclusion. I needed this badly. hanging out with the one i love. just let myself go with the flow for once in years, and I don't regret a second of it. You have to ability to be mighty amazing or retardedly sloppy. Friends give you that boost of energy, that dose of love that only friends can give, that connection that enhances your need for something greater. Oh friends. My mighty friends. my dear friends. I am amazed.

    I care about you, even though I don't know you. even though you might be an ass. I still burn for you. I give myself to the well-being of others. I forget about myself. I rarely ever take my feelings in to account. I don't know why I'm like this. I don't care to know. I just want to fix me. I am lost, but I found you. How can that be? How can i find anything if I haven't found myself? How does that work? This is where i disagree with religion. I've denied myself enough. This is where i agree with Nietzsche. Do not repress your feelings, yourself.  Embrace them, and embrace what they are. Embrace yourself. With this done, you can embrace life. society. love. anything. You will overcome yourself. You will be over. You will be above. You will be superior.
    Now, lets define superior. Superior is to be in a greater balance than the average. To ascend in the social caste system. Highermen.  Übermensch. We are all called to be superior. But, some of us have more capabilities to attain this higher state of conciousness. Ignorance is not bliss. It is waste. We must overcome. We must be better. We must succeed.

desires. fashions. money.
dazzled and confused.
what am i doing?
im no longer in control

"who am i?"
the little man asked.
you are that that is beyond our very own imagination. replied one of the elders.
the ultimate of ultimate.
the truest, true.
you are the answer.

you, Gulliver, have been brought before me
because you are truly the one. said the supreme judge.

even more confused grew the little man with this inspiring declaration.
but still he had many unresolved questions.
questions that would be desperately crying for an answer, soon.
yes, soon, but not just now.

and so, the adventures of the little man gulliver began.

easy and hard are very subjective
difficulty is just an illusion
with this in mind we have abolish impossibilities.
anything you want you can get.
anything you desire is possible.
all it takes is action.

talk - action = 0
talk + action = infinity

hello to the upcoming memories for 08

"he who can not obey himself will be commanded"
"only where thereare grtaves can there be resurrections"
"if the goal of humanity be still lacking, is there not also still lacking-- humanity itself?
"We are, all of us, growing volcanoes that approach the hour of their eruption; but how near or distant that is, nobody knows — not even God."
"You great star, what would your happiness be had you not those for whom you shine?"

you do the research